Why are you dating immediately after breaking up?

Photo by Urja Bhatt on Pexels.com Several months ago now I came to a HUGE realization in myself and what I believe is a common theme among trauma survivors where the theme is centered around self worth. Im not really sure if this applies universally between sexes or is more typical in just women and …

The Healing Is In The Return

(Healing as told by water) We're all going through many cycles. Of patterns of behavior, of trauma narratives, of self-isolation and shutting down, and of every duality in between. As we grow in our story and learn through our becoming, as we ride the flow, these cycles can become fewer and farther between. The duration …

An excerpt from deep in love

She walks towards the bed, a smile full of pleasure and worship on her face. Pleasure already experienced and the pleasure that awaits next. He is naked there on the bed. Fully exposed. Lying on his stomach with his leg cocked up and onto one side. He’s still breathing out the pleasure they’ve both shared. …

A letter

Some of us girls don't get a Dad. Not because they've passed, but because they've disconnected.... Here's a bit about myself I'd like to get off my chest cause you see this has been a long time coming, and this last month or more I've finally gotten some real peace on the subject. Peace that …

Natural guilt vs. Unnatural guilt

Let's talk about the difference between natural guilt and unnatural guilt. Well first of all where does guilt come from and why do we even have it? Guilt exists to serve our conscious mind. Unnatural guilt is what the conscious mind creates to keep us in the feeling (of our beliefs). Animals also deal with …

Mourning our Failed Expectations

Have you ever had something happen in your life, but not just a something, a Big thing. A thing you'd spent many hours dreaming and preparing for. Only to arrive at the dreamt moment and have Nothing go as planned. As hoped... Were told; "Hey, it's good! You still have....., You still can....", And so …

What My Body Says

So Im considering doing a Master Cleanse & Fasting for 7-10 days. Whoah right?! I know! But here's where I've been at for a while. Tired....Heavy....Depressed..... It's a strange Duality I've been in. My partner, the saint he is, has been really helping me move through a lot of trauma. Deeply rooted trauma. And not …

They always abandon me….

It's good you know this.... Breaking patterning is very difficult and it will take some time to make peace with your past and understand your programming. You think you've overcome programming and then you put yourself in a situation and it all comes out... All the things you thought you'd grown past, let go of, …

Where the hell do I start?

Let's talk breaking cycles.... You've come to a point in which the dissatisfaction that has become a large part of your life, can no longer be ignored. Perhaps it is in regards to relationships. For instance; you're suddenly not satisfied with the drama, lack of trust, etc that seems to be the norm in your …

366 days

Christmas has brought about a lot of closing out of cycles for me. Cycles of trauma and stress, strongly associated around the holidays, kinds you don't notice until they get triggered. I've worked hard over the years to change the ones from my childhood. For example, a few years ago, I fully recognized my extreme …